On food.

Luke and Cindy LOVED the soup I made. Which was really great, I always get nervous, and you know... there's no sugar or canned tomato products in it, which is a gamble round here.
Yesterday Jessy, bff since 3rd grade, took me out to lunch and I had a giant ceasar salad. That was okay. Actually, pretty great even. I stopped to pick cindy up a grape slush from the hotdog joint famous in these parts - netty's - and got a mocha shake that was really just gross. So I gave to Luke and he loved it.
Tonight I'm making them Kale and pan-fried tofu. It's my favorite meal, and I do really hope they like it. The tofu is marinated in braggs, olive oil and rice vinegar, really thinly sliced and fried until crispy. And the kale is with ginger, lemon, red onion, braggs and sesame seeds. I'm so excited to eat!!
Can I cook dinner at noon?

You know what else? In a week I'll be eating the a festival menu. Thank the Goddess!! Bring on the motherfucking green things!

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i'm trying so hard to keep a handle on who i am. in so many ways right now.

lj is so differn't

with half of my lj friends at the beach house, it's just not being updated very often.

Okay. i haven't seen very many people here. I'm tired of being responsible for calling people and forcing them to hang out with me. No one calls. And as soon as I leave I'm gonna hear, "why didn't you call me when you were in town?" Make me nuts.
Also. I'm a mess. I keep thinking i'm better. I made it through phase family and i'm good. but you know what? i'm not really good. i'm seriously having a meltdown. and just have to stuff it all down... act fine. smile. look, i'm happy. grown-up. Every couple days I talk to my now-friends and try so hard not to cry. I cry every time i talk to g and she can't deal right now. but neither can i.
Fuck fuck fuck.