lj is so differn't

[charlz_lynn]

with half of my lj friends at the beach house, it's just not being updated very often.

Okay. i haven't seen very many people here. I'm tired of being responsible for calling people and forcing them to hang out with me. No one calls. And as soon as I leave I'm gonna hear, "why didn't you call me when you were in town?" Make me nuts.
Also. I'm a mess. I keep thinking i'm better. I made it through phase family and i'm good. but you know what? i'm not really good. i'm seriously having a meltdown. and just have to stuff it all down... act fine. smile. look, i'm happy. grown-up. Every couple days I talk to my now-friends and try so hard not to cry. I cry every time i talk to g and she can't deal right now. but neither can i.
Fuck fuck fuck.

Comments

[jige.livejournal.com]

C, email me at gigibasanta@gmail.com if you want me to call you to chat. I don't have school tomorrow so I will be up for a while.

g xo

[twoofspades.livejournal.com]

sorry you are having a hard time
if you were further south we could hang
hope things get better soon

[charlz-lynn.livejournal.com]

Thanks... they will. they are. i'm so close to home, you know?
I wish we could hang... even if i wasn't losing my damn mind. I'm psyched for our double date.
xo.