Carsick

I left a day earlier than scheduled and treated myself to a hotel room. And a 'nice' dinner at this Italian grill joint. And a long bath. After a long shower. And a mango. And three books from Barnes and Noble. Aaaand..... a four hour phone date with the crush from camp with whom I had a couple dates. We are going to eat spicy mangoes together on Sunday. And do some other stuff. I don't know what this is, what is happening, but I like it. A lot. And so does she. I feel excited and I'm fighting the apprehension.

I don't have space to process camp right now. It was big. There have been big changes but this time they are all within my body, when normally they have to do with my life outside camp. Change in a new way at camp. Okay. I have been struggling the last few days and am happy to be back within reach of the comforts of civilization. My back needs some healing. There is so much more. Beautiful summer. I love our people. LOVE our people. Now it's 3am.

xoxo

I have been emailing with lv for a bit now. So, looks like I am going for put-in (the week before belly button) and then leading the belly button. It's exciting! I like being trusted with more responsibility. I wonder who will be the new me? 

So, this also means I am going to be arriving on July 5th. Which may be a little nuts, but I am so glad for it. I need to go home. It will be strange leaving Seattle so soon, but Mara is going on a huge road trip anyway and won't be home. My family is having a huge triple-threat family reunion in Flint on July 11th that I worked out with LV to go to. I'll rent a car or something. They've combined my grandmother's and grandfather's families, plus another family about whom I have no idea.

Right now my girlfriend is on a cruise. Which means she has no phone access for a week! What will I do with myself? I'm so excited for her in her life right now. There's some huge shit going on and I feel lucky lucky lucky to along for the ride. This cruise -- which was a gift from a friend -- is kinda like the kickoff to a lot of great things. I can't even imagine what it is like... all those bulldaggers on a boat in the carribean? Whoa. Anyway... This feels like a truly exciting time.  For her and for me and for us. I'm a geek. I'm geeking out.

I just applied for Signz, Inventory Tent, and Flex Crew.
It's so so soooo sad to not apply for Lace, even though the reason is so happy, right?
And short crew : Main Kitchen, Stage Security, and Performer Support.

I'm just guessing I could maybe do those while super pregnant.

So weird!! And I might not even go as a worker at all, really.

Even though I got a B in Calculus last term (I earned it. By skipping classes and quizzes and never making them up), I still made the Dean's List. Sweet. I had felt like a total failure. (I'm particularly hard on myself sometimes, after being a slacker)
Also, I keep forgetting to mention... My confirmation came the other day. Put-in/Lace/Main Kitch (ac). I'm still a little unsure what, exactly, put-in is going to mean for me... but I think there's a little flex added on there, too. I arrive the 11th of July. Wow.
Okay, speaking of being a slacker, I was supposed to be studying this whole time... but there was myspace and dean's list letters to look at.
xo
Also, I just took a bite of a normal looking candy cane and it was cinnamon! Weird!