bye little yellow dog.

i got an accidental phone call this morning from casey, who is babysitting margot and ree's dogs. beans has been really sick, and she was put on all sorts of antibiotics and steroids that messed her up pretty bad. and this morning, she died. i spent a long time having a break down. beano was my cuddle buddy in portland. she'd sleep curled up right behind my knees, always in the middle of the bed. even if we were in a twin. bed hog. i loved her, and i'm really sad that i'll never see her again. i'm even more sad for ree... who's in ohio right now with margot dealing with the end of a family tragedy. i really wish i could be there for her. distance blows sometimes.

today.

last night it rained. no. stormed all night. so i slept in. when i got up at 10 it was sunny and things were drying out, so i called my boss. she called me back right after my bye beano breakdown and said she'd drop the paint and stuff off for me. i got to work all afternoon completely alone. it was splendid. i listened to my headphones which always makes me work faster and better, and had a constant beans montage going through my head. it felt healthy and good. and i love that the sun is still shining.
i started bleeding right at the end of work. so.. you know how this goes. i'm in a shit ton of pain, and trying my very best to ignore it. i have towork in a half hour, and need to pick up drugs on the way there.
that's all, really. i just uploaded all of my mich pics and beyond, and need to figure out now what to do with all 311 of them, other than put a few on friendster. oh technology. any ideas?? do those websites where you post photos cost money?