Carsick

So, we met with our potential midwife today. We would be working with a team of three through this facility. Rainy City Midwifery. It was really lovely. Some hard shit came up that we haven't talked about... stuff i have been thinking about, but it hit us both kinda hard. The brute more than me, i think, because I think I was just more prepared for this kind of conversation. Do we do genetic screening? What if the kid has spina bifida or trisomy 18 or down's syndrome? The thing is, the chances are so slim, especially given my age, so I feel kinda casual about it. Anyway, we have talking to do. And then there's the question about moving to Olympia before the birth/switching care in the final trimester or coming up here for the birth... It's a hard call and it may mean staying in Seattle for a few extra months. Like I said, a lot of talking to do.

One thing I liked about the midwife is that she told me to eat comfort food. Carbs, starch, TACO BELL! So, that's what I'm doing. She said most women peak with their nausea and discomfort around week 11, and I'm at week 9. I have been nauseous all the time, and it's very distracting. I've also been so sleepy at points I don't know if I'll be able to keep my eyes open for another minute. I took a 2 hour nap today and I wanna sleep more now.

We have a date tonight, and I'm very much looking forward to it. It's not easy feeling not well all the time, as many of you know for reasons that are not pregnancy and do not go away after shoving a baby though your pelvis. It makes it hard to show up often. Soon this trimester will be over and hopefully I can be a little more myself.

I feel a bit like a broken record, but whatever. I'm just gonna keep processing what  I need to in the moment.