sobbing and boggle
Apr. 19th, 2006 12:04 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
charlz_lynnSo I've been insane trying to get everything i need to have finished finished. I leave tomorrow at 4:30pm, and still need to stain the floor of the porch. That's great, seriously. The packing is all done, the stuff is shipped, the bass is gone (after a li'l teeny mishap), cds burned, my checked bags are packed... I've been crazy enough to not have to have any feelings. And then I hugged Margot goodbye tonight. And then came the waterworks. It's so surreal leaving this place. Actually leaving a place that feels like home. I've never ever done that, and was really beginning to think that I never would when I left Santa Cruz.
I pulled myself together again over a game of boggle with Ree before we said goodbye. We both lost it a little bit. I just can't believe how close I feel to them, and how much they've done for me and taught me in these last two years. (And now I'm crying again.) And ree pointed out how easy it's been for the three of us, and expressed a lot of appreciation. You know that's never been the case when I left somewhere. I'm going to miss them so much. I know i'm on to big exciting things, and I'm making healthy changes and decisions, but it fucking hurts at the same time. Bad.
M and M are only two people, also, of sooo many here that feel like family. I'm having serious separation anxiety over so many people.
I'm going to miss portland.
I pulled myself together again over a game of boggle with Ree before we said goodbye. We both lost it a little bit. I just can't believe how close I feel to them, and how much they've done for me and taught me in these last two years. (And now I'm crying again.) And ree pointed out how easy it's been for the three of us, and expressed a lot of appreciation. You know that's never been the case when I left somewhere. I'm going to miss them so much. I know i'm on to big exciting things, and I'm making healthy changes and decisions, but it fucking hurts at the same time. Bad.
M and M are only two people, also, of sooo many here that feel like family. I'm having serious separation anxiety over so many people.
I'm going to miss portland.
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Date: 2006-04-19 03:13 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2006-04-20 03:30 am (UTC)it will be ok.
hang in there...call if you need me. your momma has my number if you dont.
love baby love!