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Nov. 6th, 2011 11:06 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
charlz_lynnThe green-eyed monster did not go away, so I have just been feeling my feelings.
It definitely got much less ferocious after meeting the date, but it's been a hell of a rough week here. This cyst is really hurting me a lot and there are some stomach things happening that I think might just be nerve-related. I guess I am still holding onto some trauma. And then I am wondering what are symptoms of other things, not just anxiety/nerves.
Ah well. My son is home now. It was 5 days! I missed him more than I could possibly say. How do people deal with that kind of separation? Everything has been punctuated by that missing, and missing my boyfriend, and just being forced to be alone and deal. I know this is good for me, I do. I did some writing, am figuring out some things I would like in terms of my relationship with The Ranger and their relationship with this new lover. We're both in some new territory here. For now, I am trying very very hard to tell myself that 'new' and 'exciting' are synonymous in terms other than exciting my stomach to the point of nausea. :)
It definitely got much less ferocious after meeting the date, but it's been a hell of a rough week here. This cyst is really hurting me a lot and there are some stomach things happening that I think might just be nerve-related. I guess I am still holding onto some trauma. And then I am wondering what are symptoms of other things, not just anxiety/nerves.
Ah well. My son is home now. It was 5 days! I missed him more than I could possibly say. How do people deal with that kind of separation? Everything has been punctuated by that missing, and missing my boyfriend, and just being forced to be alone and deal. I know this is good for me, I do. I did some writing, am figuring out some things I would like in terms of my relationship with The Ranger and their relationship with this new lover. We're both in some new territory here. For now, I am trying very very hard to tell myself that 'new' and 'exciting' are synonymous in terms other than exciting my stomach to the point of nausea. :)
