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[charlz_lynn]

I am so madly in love. Honestly, I had no idea any feeling in the world could be this intense. Not even the intensity I imagined one would feel while pregnant. I feel Oliver move inside my belly and my whole world lights up no matter what my mood. I feel proud of him for moving down into my pelvis and for growing fingernails and eyebrows and a heart and brain. I feel intense pride that he is already head down and he is doing everything exactly in the order and at the time he should be doing them for some kind of ideal pregnancy/birth. I wish that every mom-to-be could feel this smoothness. I dream about him almost every night now. Like I'm meeting him in my sleep. Oliver talking to me. Me, hunting people that would hurt him. Holding him and nursing and staring into his eyes. I can't believe what a blessing this is.

I'm gonna go read him a story now and go to sleep. I cannot believe I'm up so late, but I'll no doubt sleep until noon tomorrow. I was going to model for a sculpture class but I canceled on account of my swollen oozing tonsil and the fight against infection that I am winning thus far. It's 4 hours of commuting for 5 hours of work. Too much right now. Must care for the temple now. My priorities have definitely shifted.

Thanks, friends, for being on this incredibly personal journey with me.

Comments

meh. i still think you've just gained wait.

[janespeed.livejournal.com]

thanks for taking us along. i KNOW i wanna be preggo someday soon-ish and you are only moreso validating that primal need. it's really, really beautiful. we are mere animals. it's instinct. xo

[mightyjo.livejournal.com]

I couldn't BE more honored to be along for your ride!

Love you. Love Oliver.