a list of how i am

1. still losing my mind.
2. excited because i'm getting my tattoo finished today.
3. dressed kinda cute in a way i have not been in a long time. it involves a sweater vest.
4. a little nauseated because i ate almost an entire bag of chips.
5. hungry, because i didn't eat anything else.
6. annoyed because i don't get paid enough. last night joe says "you can't go home, you need the money." i says "what? the fifteen bucks (before taxes) is gonna make all the difference?" and donna, hiring 2 new peple and starting them at 3 dollars more than i get paid. fuck her. crooked-ass dickface.
7. whoa. did i mention still losing my mind?? cause i meant it.
8. glad that my mo and mike are moving into a bigger house. it means i get to sleep in a bed for the next week. yes.
9. shocked at the speed of the wind in ptown right now.
10. grateful that i had ten things because i'm kinda ocd sometimes.

flying

ok, i LOVE my effing tattoo!! yeah, i posted pix on friendster already. i know I should jsut find a way to put pix on here, but...
i have come so close to relapsing with tobacco twice today. i put on a pair of pants and found a butt in the pocket. next thing i knew, i was standing next to the stove, burner on, and then i yelled "NO!" and ran over to the sink and put water on it.
and next christian, who did my tattoo, offered me a smoke at our break, and I said "yeah." then i said, "No! I can't do it!" and went for a li'l walk to kris's and smoked a little tiny bit of pot instead.
please dear god tell me this is going to get easier so i don't have to be obsessed anymore.
did i mention i love my tattoo? i'm going to go back over to the other house and edit my security shirt (cut it to shreds) so it's showing. and i'm wearing a damn miniskirt to work tonight i don't care what anyone says. i don't have a costume, but my spine is on the outside.
happy halloween.