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[charlz_lynn]

Well,  friends, it appears I am bleeding.
This is okay. It has to be, and who the hell gets pregnant on the first shot? Also, I've been having the worst PMS ever and I'm glad it's almost over. I might try to find a way to have another go this month. Not with the same guy.

The Brute was here this weekend. That was really lovely, and she dealt with my swiftly shifting moods and my fucked up relationship with my body really well.

I have to get back on the ball somehow. I tried to work yesterday and just. could. not. focus. It was kind of awful. Then I had a breakdown.  Was a bit of a zombie, but only halfway.  PMS bites my ass.

Thanks, y'all, for the things you said yesterday. I'm feeling bugged by it, but remember, I said I won't be mad. And I'm not. I'm just sad. And disappointed. Again.
I have to just keep being myself. That's all.

Comments

[fagtastic.livejournal.com]

sending lots of love yr way. oxoxox.

[sugarmommaless.livejournal.com]

have you taken a pregnancy test yet? If you're just spotting, you could be pregnant.

good luck regardless... xox

[charlz-lynn.livejournal.com]

well, yeah, i've taken *cough* sixteen pregnancy tests. I started taking them way before I'd realistically be producing the hormone. (i got them super cheap from earlypregnancytests.com)
and, this is definitely just reg'lar ol' bleedin'. As in, lots.

It's alright. Next time, maybe. I don't think I'll be able to try again until after michigan unless something miraculous happens this month. And I'm bummed, but it's really all okay. It will happen when it should.
xoxox