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charlz_lynnToday is the kind of beautiful fall day that makes me think of ohio. Not even just.... Really makes me feel like i'm there. Like I'm not in pdx at all. The sun is shining. The leaves are bright orange and raining down all over the city. (aside: a strange man just sat at my table in the coffee shop. please go away strange man and stop looking at my cleavage. love, charlz)
I associate this weather with fourteen. Cough medicine for a high. Mushrooms and pot smoking and tripping in the middle of the day. Falling in love with a straight girl and running around naked in the cold cold rain at night.
I wonder if fall does this to me every year and I just forget in the months between.
Last night on the platform where tyler and I were waiting for Mike, about 8 or 9 teenage boys followed a pretty skinny young woman down the platform. I htink she deliberately came to stand by us. They were all circling around her You a stripper? she said yeah. Prove it. where you dance at? how old are you? prove it. prove. prove it.
One boy was on the outside saying leave her alone guys. They went away for a minute and tyler asked her if she was cool. she said she was fine and we told her to let us know if she wants help. both of us ready to throw down with a gaggle of teenage boys. When the train came she got on and they didn't.
Tyler was really worked up about it. I explained to her that that's why I carried a baseball bat with me in Toledo. That's why I always had planned in my head what I would use as a weapon. There were multiple times I'd be walking down the street, and a CAR would pull over and a group of young guys would get out and do that exactly. smile. play along. be nice. make yourself invisible. blend in with them. act like you're a friend. Or get a Rottweiler and a baseball bat and don't leave home without them. And then try not to live the kind of life where you're just pissed the fuck off about the fact that you have to have a personal bodyguard to move through the world safely.
this, along with the gooey fall nostalgia, is what's on my mind today.
I associate this weather with fourteen. Cough medicine for a high. Mushrooms and pot smoking and tripping in the middle of the day. Falling in love with a straight girl and running around naked in the cold cold rain at night.
I wonder if fall does this to me every year and I just forget in the months between.
Last night on the platform where tyler and I were waiting for Mike, about 8 or 9 teenage boys followed a pretty skinny young woman down the platform. I htink she deliberately came to stand by us. They were all circling around her You a stripper? she said yeah. Prove it. where you dance at? how old are you? prove it. prove. prove it.
One boy was on the outside saying leave her alone guys. They went away for a minute and tyler asked her if she was cool. she said she was fine and we told her to let us know if she wants help. both of us ready to throw down with a gaggle of teenage boys. When the train came she got on and they didn't.
Tyler was really worked up about it. I explained to her that that's why I carried a baseball bat with me in Toledo. That's why I always had planned in my head what I would use as a weapon. There were multiple times I'd be walking down the street, and a CAR would pull over and a group of young guys would get out and do that exactly. smile. play along. be nice. make yourself invisible. blend in with them. act like you're a friend. Or get a Rottweiler and a baseball bat and don't leave home without them. And then try not to live the kind of life where you're just pissed the fuck off about the fact that you have to have a personal bodyguard to move through the world safely.
this, along with the gooey fall nostalgia, is what's on my mind today.
