I must say....

[charlz_lynn]

Everyone is being so sweet about the car, many with wishes that she comes back and I can get her on the road again... But. Well, I am kinda okay with just letting her go. I mean, I was stressing about putting enough gas in the car to get around. She wasn't legally registered and there are problems that needed to be fixed already. And what else could be wrong once whoever gets done with it and ditches it somewhere? I just have exactly NO dollars to put into it, and I am totally okay with riding the bus. Well, except for once the baby comes. But that's months away.
It feels shitty to be violated like this. And no, it's not convenient to be without a vehicle. But I am not prepared to deal with repairs if the car comes back. I just wish I'd had better fucking insurance.

Anyway. Thanks everyone for  being so nice to me and sending me your love and good wishes. Really, I have no idea where I'd be in this life without those two things.

Comments

[avnerd.livejournal.com]

to be honest, i saw all the wishes that your car come back and i thought a similar thing. it's probably best if it doesn't come back and at some point you will find another car - or one will find you. it really is super stressful to maintain a car when you have 0 dollars. that's why i had to sell my granny car to Caro 5 years ago cause if even the slightest thing went wrong I couldn't afford to fix it and so there's this car sitting in the driveway that only needs a $90 battery and I can't do it but I'm still paying insurance on the fucker. that's so much more stressful than not having a car.

also, you live in Portland! maybe cycling while preggo isn't easy, but once you have Oliver it would be feasible right?