Decade Birthday

I'm turning 30 in a couple days. The last few weeks I have been taking inventory all the time. I'm going to carry that to this post, because it seems most appropriate and least overwhelming.

• Again, I'm turning 30. Finally.


• My son will be FOUR next week. We are having a cakefight party.


• I have a partner who is more supportive, patient, and kind to me than I ever imagined anyone being for so long.


• And they are so damn good looking. Yowza.


• That partner is also carrying our baby, who will probably come out in about a month.


• We got pregnant on the first try and I could weep with gratitude for that. In fact, I have.


• It's becoming easier to have difficult conversations with my mother when I feel like she's being insensitive or disrespectful to me.


• I have the coolest mom.


• Every single one of my grandparents is still alive.


• And my dad is happy for the first time -- at least that I've seen.


• I have an incredibly cute and holy-shit-so-hot new lover, who challenges me intellectually and gives me butterflies like I haven't felt in what feels like a decade. I can talk to her for hours.


• And she's a total switch. Winning.


• Mac is doing the work necessary for me to see The Scientist. It's not easy for them, especially so pregnant, but they are making it happen.


• A LOT of people in my life have died the last couple years. Most of them I only knew peripherally, but they are family with my family. I am affected more than seems appropriate by each loss. I hope that my sadness somehow eases the sadness of those who are closer. 


• I have a beautiful home that is big enough to have guests stay.


• I have the enormous privilege of working on my master's degree, with people who, for the most part, I really enjoy, and doing work that, much of the time, I also really enjoy.


• This year I started teaching college biology classes, and I can see a new branch forming in my path. I LOVE teaching.


• And damn, I am really good at it.


• I am getting fucked well, and fed well, and loved well.


• My life is full.

Bring on the 30s.