I get to keep my appendix!

But I do, apparently, have a hemorrhagic ovarian cyst. Don't know how big yet, or what my doctor will want to do, but I am guessing this is just something I will have to ride out. Ouch. Really, major ouch. But no surgery, yay!

Loneliness, can you believe it?

My mom took Oliver to the coast until Friday. They took the cat. My boyfriend has a date in town for the next 5 days. I'm lonely and dealing with some jealousy stuff (The Ranger took the time off work and their housemate is gone, too... whine. I want 5 days of no work, no baby, no roommate! end whine.). I don't like how easily I get lonely. We all know this so I'll just shut up about it now.

Had some pretty great therapy today. I've been feeling like I'm not a very good friend lately because of my lack of time and focus. It was good to work through some of those feelings, to realize that what's important is that I am present when I am giving someone my time, much more important than the amount of time I give them. I think I do an okay job of this. Also important to realize that time with my lover(s) is not the same as friend time, and I should therefore not feel guilty about taking that time as opposed to spending it with my friends. And last, I know some things about myself re: crowds, loud spaces, lots of children together.... it's okay for me to take care of myself around these situations, specifically not going into them.

Using livejournal again is helping me quite a bit right now. Thanks, lj.

I should also mention that I have cried in public three times today, overwhelmed with joy for the arrival of our new friend Petra.