I must say....

Everyone is being so sweet about the car, many with wishes that she comes back and I can get her on the road again... But. Well, I am kinda okay with just letting her go. I mean, I was stressing about putting enough gas in the car to get around. She wasn't legally registered and there are problems that needed to be fixed already. And what else could be wrong once whoever gets done with it and ditches it somewhere? I just have exactly NO dollars to put into it, and I am totally okay with riding the bus. Well, except for once the baby comes. But that's months away.
It feels shitty to be violated like this. And no, it's not convenient to be without a vehicle. But I am not prepared to deal with repairs if the car comes back. I just wish I'd had better fucking insurance.

Anyway. Thanks everyone for  being so nice to me and sending me your love and good wishes. Really, I have no idea where I'd be in this life without those two things.

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I just realized that all my shoes were in there. Including my most excellent snow boots I just bought last year. Ah well... I guess this is the kind of thing that will keep happening over the next few days.

I leave Tuesday morning for Provincetown.  I'm SO EXCITED!!  I also just spent the afternoon with some of my most favorite people and the sun was shining and I feel really blessed.