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May. 27th, 2009
more changes
May. 27th, 2009 03:11 pmWell, I just got off the phone with B. I've been having a lot of anxiety around whether or not I will be able to do my job on lace this year with my lifting restrictions and huge belly. The more I talk with my midwife and the more I read, it just seems like I would be more of a burden to the crew than anything. Like there would be so little I could actually do. So, I'm not going to be on Lace this year.
I wrote LV to talk about it, and I don't know where they will put me. I have leadership positions book-ending long crew, so I know I will be there, at least. In my ultimate fantasy world, I would be able to work Gals long and MK short. But I know that is very unlikely. I did, however, share that fantasy with LV. So, we'll see.
Anyway. I'm very bummed to not be on lace, it's my home. But I don't want to put myself or the baby at risk. And it is pretty risky: toxins from animal shit in the barns, hemorrhoids from heavy lifting, straining a muscle that would make birth much more difficult, falling off things because of my center of gravity being so much further forward, more flare-ups with my sciatic nerve which has been really horribly painful again in the past few days. I think I would end up transferring to a different crew anyway, so this gives B some negotiating time. And me, too, I guess. Though, I'll be happy wherever they put me.
Well, fellow Lace crew (the few of you who read this shit), I'm going to miss you! But I'll still be in the circle as much as possible.
I wrote LV to talk about it, and I don't know where they will put me. I have leadership positions book-ending long crew, so I know I will be there, at least. In my ultimate fantasy world, I would be able to work Gals long and MK short. But I know that is very unlikely. I did, however, share that fantasy with LV. So, we'll see.
Anyway. I'm very bummed to not be on lace, it's my home. But I don't want to put myself or the baby at risk. And it is pretty risky: toxins from animal shit in the barns, hemorrhoids from heavy lifting, straining a muscle that would make birth much more difficult, falling off things because of my center of gravity being so much further forward, more flare-ups with my sciatic nerve which has been really horribly painful again in the past few days. I think I would end up transferring to a different crew anyway, so this gives B some negotiating time. And me, too, I guess. Though, I'll be happy wherever they put me.
Well, fellow Lace crew (the few of you who read this shit), I'm going to miss you! But I'll still be in the circle as much as possible.