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May. 19th, 2009 04:53 pmI feel like everything I write here is super depressing. I don't mean for that to be the case. But... well, maybe that's just where I am right now.
So, the downer thing of right now: My whole family is at Aunt Mimi's funeral. Or, they were earlier today. I miss them so much, and it's hard growing this baby away from all my blood. It's hard growing this baby period. I'm struggling with a lot of things that are not appropriate for me to talk about here. Maybe I will soon, but damn it all I need some in-person support. Not just me over-processing on LJ so I can read it next year and remember "Oh, that was hard..." That's less than productive.
I did talk to Tyler for a long time today and that was super helpful. She'll be up here this weekend for a minute. I just wonder why all my people can't live in one place. That would make everything much easier right now. I should let them all know and maybe we'll all move to... I dunno. Nebraska? (kidding.) Anyway. I'm so happy to live close enough to my co that I see her fairly regularly. It's life-changing every time.
Physically, I feel worlds better lately. Symptoms are less frequent but more severe. Happening almost never, though. I'm two days into trimester 2 and I do want to sleep all day still. Could be the crying and depression... Yeah, emotionally, not-so-hot. Maybe there will be some therapy in my near future. I'm getting through it, I think. Just have to keep crying and maybe something will shift soon. Rob Breszny seems to think something is about to shift.
So, the downer thing of right now: My whole family is at Aunt Mimi's funeral. Or, they were earlier today. I miss them so much, and it's hard growing this baby away from all my blood. It's hard growing this baby period. I'm struggling with a lot of things that are not appropriate for me to talk about here. Maybe I will soon, but damn it all I need some in-person support. Not just me over-processing on LJ so I can read it next year and remember "Oh, that was hard..." That's less than productive.
I did talk to Tyler for a long time today and that was super helpful. She'll be up here this weekend for a minute. I just wonder why all my people can't live in one place. That would make everything much easier right now. I should let them all know and maybe we'll all move to... I dunno. Nebraska? (kidding.) Anyway. I'm so happy to live close enough to my co that I see her fairly regularly. It's life-changing every time.
Physically, I feel worlds better lately. Symptoms are less frequent but more severe. Happening almost never, though. I'm two days into trimester 2 and I do want to sleep all day still. Could be the crying and depression... Yeah, emotionally, not-so-hot. Maybe there will be some therapy in my near future. I'm getting through it, I think. Just have to keep crying and maybe something will shift soon. Rob Breszny seems to think something is about to shift.
