The most crazy-making

[charlz_lynn]

I really really really really really wish I could tell if I'm pregnant. I could be. Right now. Or I could not. Damn. I just want to KNOW.

I'm going through a really self-centered time around this. Things I think I am this year (themes, you might say): lazy, self-centered, obsessed with pregnancy. All three things I have decided and have to keep on deciding over and over to be okay with. Serious grieving has taken a huge toll on a lot of aspects of my life, pushing the self-centeredness even further. And the laziness... well. I need to conquer that. Especially where school in concerned. I am looking to festival as a turnaround.
Again.
And again and again.
I will start taking my super-early pregnancy tests on Tuesday. And, of course, I'll do one as soon as I get home tomorrow just because. I do, though, feel like something is happening. I'm having a really weird relationship with my body right now. And I think with food, too. BUt I don't trust myself around this. Of course I'm going to think I'm pregnant.

One more thing: Sex. I want to know about pregnant sex. I want to know about insemination sex.. like, between insemination and really preggers. What are the risks? Why don't I know more about this?

Comments

im not an expert on this

[missbunnys-tale.livejournal.com]

i think that in the first maybe 6-8-10?? weeks of pregnancy, its reccomended not to have alot of sex, especially cervix knocking uterus pounding kind of sex. come to think of it even hard ass fucking could knock a precariously perched blastocyst from its perch. second and third trimester are way way safer for any kind of boot knocking -

it also depends on how strong your orgasms are - a good set of serious contractions could also induce a miscarraige if you ahve an "irritable uterus..." would be evidenced by lots of little cramping and some spotting.

however it depends on how your pregnacy constitution is gonna be.... i would listen to your bodys libido levels, but keep it toned down aka more vanilla. donkeypunch yr arms and chest instead of the babypalace....

Re: im not an expert on this

[charlz-lynn.livejournal.com]

Thanks, m! This is pretty much what my body has been telling me, so I've just not had any sex since inseminating. I know it's a pretty delicate time. Still don't know if it's clinging on or even fertilized. Hoping to find out in the next few days.
But I think you're right. Listening to my body might just be the best thing. No punch-fucking for me. Ah. Well.

Thanks again. I love this post. Maybe someday my kid is gonna find my lj and be all "Maaa! Gross!"

xoxox