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the thing about the quarters system is, i have a first day of school like a million (3) times.
No sleep for me, but it's okay. I'd still be in be but i'm waiting for a check to arrive from my mom that i have to sign for.
So, this term is going to be so much more laid back. I'm so so so excited to have some time to myself back, to not be freaking out all the time. Here's my new schedule:

  • 1p-2:50 - biology lecture
  • 6p-7:50 - argumentative writing
  • 6p-9:50 - African art
  • 9a-11:50 - biology lab
  • 1p-2:50 - biology lecture
  • 6p-7:50 - argumentative writing
What??? I'm so excited about this. Here's the thing... I get to sleep in on Tuesdays. I get to work Mondays and Fridays, painting, or trot off to Seattle or the East coast (yeah, just 'trot off', what?) for a long weekend. I can put my writing papers off until the last minute and have three hours before class to do them. I know, irresponsible, but inevitable.

So. Let's talk about spring break.
I'm still in shock about the way this last week and a half has played out. How good it's been... how many things smushed into that time.
The day after classes ended, the gardener picked me up and took me to Seattle for a really amazing 2 day date. I came home, and went to Cirque du Soleil with the BT... with super fancy dinner before, and super fancy drinks afterward.***  Then I came home in the morning and grilled yummy deliciousness with t and m and t's friend mike on Easter Sunday. Packing, packing, and at the airport the next morning. North Carolina. See last week of posts.
Then, the gardener picked me up from the airport and dragged me to a hotel for one night. I like our bodies together, they just work really nice. And sweet is not bad. We had breakfast, and I came home to spend the entire day kinda getting ready for the date with the Brutal Stranger (formerly the One Yet to be Named). Holy shit, that was amazing.

FIrst of all, that scene was hot hot hot and I've never done anything like that. My entire ass is a bruise, and I can't stop thinking about how insanely hot she is. She's also just a really great person. Our play was interlaced with really great conversations. She's in therapy school, so she asked a lot of leading questions and put my brain places it might not have ended up on its own. It was pretty cool - I know that sounds like it could be bad or weird, but it just felt good. Everything just felt really really good with her. Super safe and comfortable and HOT. After 5 solid hours of hard play, we played boggle. And I completely mopped the floor with her. I had 38 points in one round. Fucking awesome. hehe
We left the hotel room at 3am to get food and ended up in a pedi-cab (bike cab) in downtown portland. We had asked the driver for directions and he said, "I'm going there, so hop in." There was a speaker playing dance music and the streets were completely empty. Talk about surreal. Crap.
Neither of us wanted the date to end. We had had so much anticipation leading into it. We were up until 6 am and up again at 10. We did breakfast and I brought her home with me. She left at 5. 22 hour date. Jeezus.
The whole thing was set up as a one-night stand, but we're going to see each other again. Now our conversations are dirty dirtiness with "Where's the line that ends 'casual'?"
Yesterday I spent the whole day hanging out and running errands with Zelda. We went to check out the Independent Publishing Resource Center, which is the coolest fucking place in the whole world and I'll be becoming a member as soon as financial aid comes. Zelda's going to also. It'll be worth it (money-wise) even just for making my booklette. Not to mention the millions of cool events and resources available to memebers. 
I love Zelda. I love exploring, and this term needs to have much much more of that in it.

So. my predominant feeling this spring break is gratefulness. I feel really lucky and blessed that these amazing wonderful people are giving me their time/energy/attention... I really feel like the luckiest girl in the world. There have been times where being such a slut has been really unfulfilling, unsatisfying, and left me feeling empty and alone, but it's not at all like that now. Because, I guess, things are very loving and emotional while being casual and open. I feel an actual heart connection with the people I'm spending this time with. Really, what a serious honor.

***(sidenote: the BT is, I'm pretty sure, breaking things off with me, it seems because her feelings have gotten stronger, and she's been pretty jealous - surprising to both of us - about my dating these other people. This is probably a good thing. Being with people who are my people makes me realize even more just how much she's not. Anyway... we're meeting in a week about it.) 


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