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That thing I wrote about side effects was a little premature. It's nothing too terrible, but I'm having insomnia and the shits. Not simultaneously, thank god. The insomnia I can't so certainly pin on any one thing. We're moving the day after tomorrow and I'm having a very hard time sitting still in my house. So I stay awake but lying down. Tonight I've been packing and it's definitely calming me down. I just did this in fucking December. So at least my stuff hasn't accumulated too much. Most of it is in storage. That saves a lot of work.

Jodie has been really heartbroken about moving out of this place she's lived for five years. This is her neighborhood,  she loves it here. Everyone knows her. Now everyone knows me. We're moving like three miles away, but it's not going to be the same as having your pub two doors down. I feel for her. I love this place too, though it's changing so quickly. Gentrification has done so much to this five block radius. Beginning with the pub, then the brewery, then the public house, then a hipster corner store, now a cider house and a backpacking tour guide store and a fucking sugar waxing salon beneath new apartments that were trying to rent for fucking 2 grand for a two bedroom and claiming to be "The most sustainable apartments in Portland!" Fuuuuck you. They sold our apartment building and our one bedroom abode is probably going to go up to 1200. We're in Portland. And right down the street I hear gunshots all the time at the park where we play. Where I've been taking Oliver since he was 1. People are mad. Except the rich white people who are buying property here. They're smiling and laughing and having a fucking meeting on our back stoop on Easter Sunday then asking if they can come in when we go to find out who the hell..? All of these things affect jodie deeply. Me too. Obviously.

I miss my little house with Tyler and wish we could get it back. It's close but not too close.

I wasn't really expecting to write all of that but I guess insomnia plus slight mania plus reefer make this happen. I'm gonna go put more shit in boxes.