Panic moments

 It was very brief, this one... but. Someone close by has a kid that was screaming. Suddenly I heard this child and thought it was Oliver in the other room. Well, i had been hearing them thinking it wasn't him. Then ohmygodisthatoliver!!!???!!! I forgot I had moved him to the crib from the bed, because the fan is in the window and all he wants in the whole world is to put his tiny perfect little digits into the fan. That's all. Just once, to see... I panicked for a flashing moment and ran into the room, and of course he's in his crib.

I love that kid so much. More each day. I am so blessed. I am so happy to be a mom, and exponentially more happy each day because I am *his* mom. What a tremendous honor. I'm excited for some more of you to meet/see him! 

I should maybe mention that I desperately need to bleed.