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We made it!
Mar. 17th, 2011 06:53 pmWe are officially on vacation. I'm so happy to be unwinding after that insanely challenging term. It's not that the material was especially challenging, but being so sick -- or the parent of a so sick kid -- while trying to learn it made it challenging.
****** I like to put this body/size stuff behind cuts, but my browser isn't letting me do that. So, warning, the following paragraph is about the size of my body.****
I've been shrinking out of my clothes since I stopped eating wheat and cheese. There is a lot to say about this... a LOT, that I don't want to delve into right now. But, I have lost 60lbs since I gave birth to Oli. Whoa. This makes for some complicated identity stuff. I was feeling happy to be a size at which I felt validated identifying as fat. I am shrinking out of a size 14 now, and I no longer feel that fat is an okay identity for me. 14 is a weird middle zone. One positive thing about this, last night I thought the seats on the plane were bigger. Then I realized last time I flew, in September, there was 40lbs more of me. I find weight loss scientifically fascinating. Where did it go?? Also, I don't want to lose my ass.
*****end body stuff... begin bragging*****
One last thing, before I watch Bones and go to bed, I got 100% on my last essay in history class. Yes, I'm bragging. Only because I'm surprised that I was able to pull this out while so buried by everything... Well, plus the instructor has been a very hard grader, with excellent constructive feedback. This is what he wrote:
Bravo, Brandi! This has a nuanced and precise thesis the body does a splendid job of sticking to and substantiating. I'm particularly impressed by your capacity for historical empathy. This is well written and thoughtful, the best essay I've read during finals week so far.
It will be a treat to work with you again!
Phew! Alright, off I go to watch internet tv and sleeeeep.
****** I like to put this body/size stuff behind cuts, but my browser isn't letting me do that. So, warning, the following paragraph is about the size of my body.****
I've been shrinking out of my clothes since I stopped eating wheat and cheese. There is a lot to say about this... a LOT, that I don't want to delve into right now. But, I have lost 60lbs since I gave birth to Oli. Whoa. This makes for some complicated identity stuff. I was feeling happy to be a size at which I felt validated identifying as fat. I am shrinking out of a size 14 now, and I no longer feel that fat is an okay identity for me. 14 is a weird middle zone. One positive thing about this, last night I thought the seats on the plane were bigger. Then I realized last time I flew, in September, there was 40lbs more of me. I find weight loss scientifically fascinating. Where did it go?? Also, I don't want to lose my ass.
*****end body stuff... begin bragging*****
One last thing, before I watch Bones and go to bed, I got 100% on my last essay in history class. Yes, I'm bragging. Only because I'm surprised that I was able to pull this out while so buried by everything... Well, plus the instructor has been a very hard grader, with excellent constructive feedback. This is what he wrote:
Bravo, Brandi! This has a nuanced and precise thesis the body does a splendid job of sticking to and substantiating. I'm particularly impressed by your capacity for historical empathy. This is well written and thoughtful, the best essay I've read during finals week so far.
It will be a treat to work with you again!
Phew! Alright, off I go to watch internet tv and sleeeeep.
