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Sep. 10th, 2009 12:56 amMy life feels crazy. But it's not, really. I mean. granted:
My room is being remodeled and I am sleeping on a murphy bed in the sewing room.
I'm 6.5 months preggs and cannot believe that I'm going to get even bigger than I already am.
I'm falling madly in love with someone I met just over a month ago.
Madly. In love. 6.5 months pregnant.
I have no work and no money. (6.5 mo preggs.) Little tiny things are showing up, like fliering and focus groups.
I am having issues getting WA state to cancel my benefits so I can get benefits here in Oregon. I need food stamps like, last week.
There are a million people to catch up with here.
My car is not legal and I don't really care. It's insured. Not registered.
I have things to organize like baby shower lists and inviting people for Thanksgiving.
The thing is, I feel unsettled, but not stressed out. Stress is not something I need right now, and certainly not something Oliver needs me to be feeling. I feel happy and mostly calm, but all my shit is still in my car and I'm living out of a duffel bag until I get my room put together. There's no floor in here when the bed is down. My room is going to be beautiful. Stunning, even. I have amazing support and love here, too, which helps with the no stress.
How the hell do you make a list of shit you need for a baby? I want to buy used things and wooden toys and cloth toys and not go to WalMart, but my family... I don't know how to negotiate these things. Ask for gift cards? Cash? How do you ask for shit? Some amazing moms are giving me their babies' things. That's awesome.
Oliver is super active lately. In fact, my computer just jumped a little. I like it so much. I love feeling him. I love him more than I thought was ever posssible to love anyone or anything. I can't wait to meet him. Hopefully I'll get another ultrasound soon. I'm meeting the woman who will hopefully be my midwife tomorrow. And this is good because I feel like I really could use some care. I wanna ask things. I've been pretty exhausted and dizzy and weak at points and I just wanna make sure it's normal. And I'd like to listen in on the baby and maybe see him again.
That's all for now. Just a super-scattered mess of a post. It's waaaaay past my bedtime. Busy busy day tomorrow with no scheduled nap time. That part may have to change.
xoxo
My room is being remodeled and I am sleeping on a murphy bed in the sewing room.
I'm 6.5 months preggs and cannot believe that I'm going to get even bigger than I already am.
I'm falling madly in love with someone I met just over a month ago.
Madly. In love. 6.5 months pregnant.
I have no work and no money. (6.5 mo preggs.) Little tiny things are showing up, like fliering and focus groups.
I am having issues getting WA state to cancel my benefits so I can get benefits here in Oregon. I need food stamps like, last week.
There are a million people to catch up with here.
My car is not legal and I don't really care. It's insured. Not registered.
I have things to organize like baby shower lists and inviting people for Thanksgiving.
The thing is, I feel unsettled, but not stressed out. Stress is not something I need right now, and certainly not something Oliver needs me to be feeling. I feel happy and mostly calm, but all my shit is still in my car and I'm living out of a duffel bag until I get my room put together. There's no floor in here when the bed is down. My room is going to be beautiful. Stunning, even. I have amazing support and love here, too, which helps with the no stress.
How the hell do you make a list of shit you need for a baby? I want to buy used things and wooden toys and cloth toys and not go to WalMart, but my family... I don't know how to negotiate these things. Ask for gift cards? Cash? How do you ask for shit? Some amazing moms are giving me their babies' things. That's awesome.
Oliver is super active lately. In fact, my computer just jumped a little. I like it so much. I love feeling him. I love him more than I thought was ever posssible to love anyone or anything. I can't wait to meet him. Hopefully I'll get another ultrasound soon. I'm meeting the woman who will hopefully be my midwife tomorrow. And this is good because I feel like I really could use some care. I wanna ask things. I've been pretty exhausted and dizzy and weak at points and I just wanna make sure it's normal. And I'd like to listen in on the baby and maybe see him again.
That's all for now. Just a super-scattered mess of a post. It's waaaaay past my bedtime. Busy busy day tomorrow with no scheduled nap time. That part may have to change.
xoxo
