book club

i almost forgot...
my book club #2 was last night. I'm probably not going to go again. I do love the idea of it, but everyone is constantly talking over each other, cutting each other off, and i can't handle that. Nor can I do that, which means I just don't speak. Not if i have to have a shouting match with someone in order to be heard. Cause, let's face it, I just never win shouting matches.
There's also this part of me that gets really really annoyed at people reading into things that I don't believe have more to them than, say, two girls digging a hole with sticks (the book was Sula, and no, I don't think the girls are lesbians). So, I feel crappy being annoyed with people. It's a part of me I don't like so much, but it's there for sure. No more book club for me.
I feel sad about this, because I really like the owners, and would love it if it were smaller. It was twice as big last night as it was last month. I think this has a lot to do with the fact that i don't really play well with others.
Anyway... Maybe I'll just keep reading the books, and have a solo book club... just to force myself into thinking in that way.