dreams

i dreamt last night that i was doing sexwork. not wrestling, but sleeping with my clients and cooking dinner for them, too. it was really strange. like i posted an ad and then just waited for them to come to me. i was working out of a basement - maybe margot and ree's, but of course it looked nothing like their place.
last night i also broke out in a fever and had a really intense pain in my left side for a long time. i took a muscle relaxer and the pain mostly stopped, but waking up this morning i was soaked. and now it's raining and windy and cold. no work. maybe better that way, except i didn't work yesterday. couldn't work at the painting site cause there was too much else going on there, and i called off at the vixen cause i felt so shitty. wish i knew what was up. mom says it could be the beginnings of the flu. fuck that, i have a big week coming up. anyway, there's no nausea. we'll see.
i'm going back to bed now i think.

about time

i really want to gush about last weekend with grover. i know this is a little late in coming, but it was just amazing.
i had saturday off, so i drove to providence sat morning and met up with g who'd been there since fri night. we went to an apple orchard. as it goes in providence, this took about a million times turning around and having "hunches" about where we should turn. even that was mostly fun. the orchard was really amazing. perfect weather, walking around eating apples and dropping them in the basket, laying in the clover (clover angels), stopping to make out ever hundred feet or so... damn. fall is good. on the way out we stopped back by the stand owned by the orchard and picked up corn and green beans and cider.
back at alice's, we "got dressed" and i made soup. we had a little role playing that we lived in the same city and she was coming over for dinner. and while i would suffer endlessly for her, i only wore my new 3" heels for half of the cooking. dinner was excellent. and then..... yum.
we spent some good time watching a movie on the couch. Waking Ned Devine. it was great. cuddling is great. feeling like we're falling in love again, but for the first time, is great.
there's so much more, but i'm going to leave it at that.

other warm things...
when i woke up this morning at about 6, my mumma was standing over me, checking my temperature. she was scared last night when i had a fever and pains in my side. i guess i was, too... but i think i'm just fine. stupid digestion. anyway, it was maybe the first time ever that my mom said the word "hospital." as in "you might need to go to the hospital." weird.