hmmph...

my soul is ready to cry, but my eyes aren't giving it any chance. i think soon i will be writing one of those entries where all i can do is slouch in my chair and beg the goddess to rip out my reproductive organs. if ya know what i mean. or even if you don't.
i'm emotionally exhausted. there are really frustrating things happening both in- and outside of my head. more on that later. i'm sure.

kay. different things. i miss my friends. where are you people? i'm back for a long time now, so please, call me. i've been working on my house, so i'm home a lot.
jonesy and i have been painting/staining our back deck and i'm starting the front porch tomorrow or sunday. the railings, stairs and rafters are all stained this GORGEOUS dark bluish green, and the particle board between the rafters is brown right now (that's hideous), but will soon be a cream color. and we're laying some outdoor carpet within the next week- probably brown astro-turf. waaaay exciting.
oh, yeah... i'm not moving, as was planned. there was a house meeting, during which we talked about why i wanted to move, and m+m wanting me to stay. this is great news. and it happened right before i left for the east coast. i'm going to do lots of projects, including finishing the basement. once that's done i'll have my own living room area. a place to throw my bookbag down, and maybe even a couch for dry humping on. i can hang things on the walls, and won't feel like i'm invading anyone else's space if i have friends here. so many problems solved. yay communication!

alright, the only time i write long posts is when i'm putting something else off, so i should go deal with that now.
damn i'm a slacker.
but i feel less like crying now. thanks.