sleep

i've been so weird lately and i'm OVER IT. if i don't feel totally nauseous, i've been having nightmares all night, or i'm hungover, or i'm just in a bad mood because i can be. this is annoying. and this almost always happens around this time of year. it's time for festival to fix me up so i can deal with people bumping into me, and occupying the space around me. or even just so i can deal with myself, including all the parts i hate.
it really doesn't make much sense- things are great in my life. i haven't been home in a really long time, though. and i'm broke. but who cares, really? i shouldn't. thankfully school is over tomorrow, and one more month before we head to the miswestern woodland.
babble babble babble.
i've been crazy nostalgic recently, too.... dreaming about the trailer park i grew up in, and searching for old friends and exes on the internet. i think i found one today.. well, his parents. i'm going to make the akward "hey, do you have a son named... do you know how to reach him?" phone call. it's weird how much i miss the people i haven't talked to in a long time. i was always so excited to leave them behind. that sounded totally fucked up. oh well.
how on earth do i find these kids?
shit i'm so tired. this probably is making no sense at all. goodnight moon.