charlz_lynn (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
charlz_lynn) wrote2007-07-02 07:26 pm
charlz_lynn) wrote2007-07-02 07:26 pm
lj is so differn't
with half of my lj friends at the beach house, it's just not being updated very often.
Okay. i haven't seen very many people here. I'm tired of being responsible for calling people and forcing them to hang out with me. No one calls. And as soon as I leave I'm gonna hear, "why didn't you call me when you were in town?" Make me nuts.
Also. I'm a mess. I keep thinking i'm better. I made it through phase family and i'm good. but you know what? i'm not really good. i'm seriously having a meltdown. and just have to stuff it all down... act fine. smile. look, i'm happy. grown-up. Every couple days I talk to my now-friends and try so hard not to cry. I cry every time i talk to g and she can't deal right now. but neither can i.
Fuck fuck fuck.
Okay. i haven't seen very many people here. I'm tired of being responsible for calling people and forcing them to hang out with me. No one calls. And as soon as I leave I'm gonna hear, "why didn't you call me when you were in town?" Make me nuts.
Also. I'm a mess. I keep thinking i'm better. I made it through phase family and i'm good. but you know what? i'm not really good. i'm seriously having a meltdown. and just have to stuff it all down... act fine. smile. look, i'm happy. grown-up. Every couple days I talk to my now-friends and try so hard not to cry. I cry every time i talk to g and she can't deal right now. but neither can i.
Fuck fuck fuck.