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charlz_lynn) wrote2013-10-21 10:56 pm
charlz_lynn) wrote2013-10-21 10:56 pm
Confession
I know that I'm really busy. I know that when people come to Portland they have a lot going on; people to see, family, sights, whatevering to do. But. It hurts my feelings when people I love and have known for a very long time come here and don't even say "Hey. I'm in your town and too busy to see you." Or whatever.
This has happened a BUNCH of times in the last month and because of it I'm feeling really weird and insecure. Am I weird? Do these people not like me? Have I been/am I being ostracized by my community? It's because I'm not pretty, isn't it?
I know this is all really silly, but I just needed to acknowledge that it's happening.
And everything else: Just. Whoa.
Oh, and PS. I actually do feel kinda pretty lately. Mostly thanks to Joey and my hair.
This has happened a BUNCH of times in the last month and because of it I'm feeling really weird and insecure. Am I weird? Do these people not like me? Have I been/am I being ostracized by my community? It's because I'm not pretty, isn't it?
I know this is all really silly, but I just needed to acknowledge that it's happening.
And everything else: Just. Whoa.
Oh, and PS. I actually do feel kinda pretty lately. Mostly thanks to Joey and my hair.