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charlz_lynn) wrote2006-11-29 05:00 pm
charlz_lynn) wrote2006-11-29 05:00 pm
oh right.
speaking of social anxiety...
i joined a book club. weird, huh? actually, i didn't join , necessarily, i just bought the book and said i'd be there when the first meeting happened. that was last week.
now, the there that i need to be is not far and the when is only 2 hours away. and i'm scared.
i just finished the book, The Memory Keeper's Daughter, by Kim Edwards... which was alright. not the greatest ever, but i actually would like to discuss it with people. but now i'm going to go to this coffee shop (lonelyville) to discuss it with a whole bunch of STRANGERS!
WHAT WAS I THINKING????
i know. i'm gonna go. i'm gonna love it. it will help me to feel less depressed and alone. these are all good things. but they will only happen if i actually make it through the park and into the door without turning around and running right back here to the safety and comfort of grover's apartment. where i have been, alone, for most of the last two days.
i'll let you all know how it went.
also. i want to smoke. i will not, but it's creeping into my thoughts more the last few days. damn it all.
oh, and also, who's up for early january ice skating in nyc???
i joined a book club. weird, huh? actually, i didn't join , necessarily, i just bought the book and said i'd be there when the first meeting happened. that was last week.
now, the there that i need to be is not far and the when is only 2 hours away. and i'm scared.
i just finished the book, The Memory Keeper's Daughter, by Kim Edwards... which was alright. not the greatest ever, but i actually would like to discuss it with people. but now i'm going to go to this coffee shop (lonelyville) to discuss it with a whole bunch of STRANGERS!
WHAT WAS I THINKING????
i know. i'm gonna go. i'm gonna love it. it will help me to feel less depressed and alone. these are all good things. but they will only happen if i actually make it through the park and into the door without turning around and running right back here to the safety and comfort of grover's apartment. where i have been, alone, for most of the last two days.
i'll let you all know how it went.
also. i want to smoke. i will not, but it's creeping into my thoughts more the last few days. damn it all.
oh, and also, who's up for early january ice skating in nyc???