I want my phone to ring

I'm realizing that once you isolate yourself, it's hard to climb back out of isolation.
It's okay, but. Well, self pity right here: I want someone, anyone, to be thinking of me hard enough to call me.
It's been a ridiculously long time since my phone rang. **
This is not a push, just an observation.

And today, well... Today someone is up front in my mind with whom dynamics are complicated right now. And by complicated I mean I have no idea what's going on but I think I'm being viewed as a monster.
But. I meant what I said in the text. I just hope it was a great one.

**that is, other than from my Mom or The Brute. Which is not to say they don't count.... but. Date and Mother. ya know.